Thoughts from Lanie:
I am not going to lie… I cried a lot during my pregnancy. A lot. I was scared and wondered why my daughter was the one who had Down syndrome while people all around me were having these adorable, perfect, and healthy little babies. I can honestly say that having Annabelle is 1,000 times better than being pregnant with her. My tears have dried up. They have been replaced with a commitment to love her, teach her, and grow with her. I always knew that I would love her, but after she was born, I was reminded of how unconditional it would be. I am truly looking forward to my future with her. I can’t wait to watch her grow and thrive.
So far, life isn’t any different having a baby with Down syndrome. We have had a few extra doctor appointments since Annabelle does have two holes in her heart that will need repair, but other than that, nothing has changed much. Our life is good, and happiness is still a choice, just like it was before she was born.
For the past few days, I have looked into her precious eyes and know that she needs me. She needs me for comfort, for food, and for love. And, honestly, I need her too. She brings me joy. Her smile melts my heart and fills that empty place in my soul that was so terrified that my life would never be the same. Today I am thankful for all three of my wonderful children. They keep me grounded. They give my life purpose. -Lanie. mom to Annabelle